There are quiet moments
After the lights have been turned off
Gadgets powered down
No more distractions
Distract
The only noise,
Traffic outside
Sirens screaming by
Thoughts in my head
In these moments
Lying awake in bed
Waiting for sleep
Hoping
Praying
Dreading
It comes easily
Then
There
You find me
You come
You sit
On the edge of my bed
Or on the floor
With your back to the wall
Or lying next to me
In this
Too big
Too empty
Bed
You sit quietly
Watching
Listening
Being
Quietly
In my mind
Everything
Nothing
My mind that won’t stop
That can’t quit
That refuses to let go
And you sit there
Or lie here
And I rage
And I scream
And I ache
And I cry
And I break
When there are no more distractions
To keep you away
To occupy my mind
Then
There
You find me
Helpless
Confused
Vulnerable
Angry
Unwilling or unable
To put up a fight
To deny
To distract
To lie
Every day
Every moment
I fight you
I don’t want you here
Not like this
Not this way
Not this why
Measuring time by
Your absence
Your silence
Your distance
My emptiness
Then
There
You find me
Like this
This way
This why
A million questions
Wonderings
Whys
And you sit there
Silently
Lie here
Quietly
And I am
Here
Without answers
In silence
The dark
A pain
Slowly
Silently suffocating me
Distractions
Gone
Lights
Off
And I wait
Wait
For my hope to fade
For my ache to ease
For the want in me
That’s wanting you
To be fulfilled by someone else
Something else
I wait
For your call
For your touch
For peace
For one more breath
Before I sleep
Then
There
You find me
Here
Now
I am found
