"I wanted love my whole life… now I don't," she spoke loudly
to no one I could see as she walked into the alley
with her garbage to empty into the dumpster
on that frozen morning.
Lead in my veins
those words
my heart dead in its tracks
walking down the sidewalk across the street.
From the alley of love unwanted.
Could it be? Did I hear correctly?
What hopelessness.
What anguish.
What pain.
What else?
If not love?
What?! and Why?!
What is it you must want?!
I thought desperately
What hell has life been for you that you could say such words,
so freely,
would feel such pain,
so visibly.
Soul shattered for her, for me
this woman I don't know and will likely never again see
wouldn't recognize if I did,
for anyone
everyone
who might feel the same.
Broken.
Devastated.
Unbelieving.
Her worth
In her eyes or mine
Untruth and lies
swallowed down like honey in tea
completely mistaken
killing her from the inside
Who said she was undeserving!?!
